Progress is slow & other excuses

I am still working, Book Two is still coming soon, followed shortly by Book Three.

I finished the first story of Season Two and plotted out the rest of the season. From the looks of it, there will be ten stories, not counting the one that takes place after the season.

Schedule

In a week or so, I'll upload all the current stories in a collected form. I have rewritten a few parts of it, fixing a few errors and other problems. I have also added a few scenes and attempted to better explain some details (one of which is why they continue to use the names Buffy and Faith). Some scenes have been removed or changed to help the flow of the story. It will be posted in three parts, mainly because I feel the cliffhangers work better that way. Since I consider all the current stories to be a season, this is basically the season boxset with a few edits. I'm also adding some notes to the story. If you don't want to bother reading through it again, it is basically the same thing as the originals, but it is a good reminder before the next season.

After that I will post a short story here, an exclusive story that takes place between seasons. It is too short to be part of the regular story, but I feel it needs to be told.

I'm debating holding back season two for a while to post another story. It takes place after season two, but sets it up and ties into the epilogue of season one. It will end in a cliffhanger and will be wrapped up after season two. So if I do post it after season two, it will be a two part finale.

After that, I'm pretty much done with the series. There are a few more stories to be told, some of which are hinted at in the finale story. But I'll probably not do another season of them and instead focus on individual stories.

I also have some ideas for some non-MAU stories and would like to do them in the near future. I just need to get Buffy and Faith's story out of my system.

Coming Soon...

The next chapter of the MAU - Slayers series should be ready by next month.

Faith Speaks - Nightmares

I've been having nightmares lately, mainly two different ones. One deals with my parents. They're dead now, they didn't even know I was like this. I sometimes wonder what would have happened if they found out. They probably wouldn't believe it, hell I barely believe it. I do wonder if they would be proud of me or at least accept me. That's part of what the nightmare goes into. I can't remember all of it, just them yelling at me for being so stupid. I actually woke up crying. I know that it is just a dream, but it felt so real. I haven't even told my best friend about it. I feel stupid to even let it bother me.

The other one needs some set up. I was kidnapped by this creep. Normally I'd kick his ass and leave, but he was able to control people. He made me his slave, I was able to break free and get away. Sometime later I find out he's not locked up and he comes after me. Thankfully B was with me and she killed him. But in these dreams, he's back. But like a zombie or something, all rotting. He comes in and holds me down, I can't fight him off and I feel so weak. Before he does anything else, I wake up. Usually in a pool of my own sweat. Fuck I wish I could erase that part of my memory. If he wasn't dead I'd be looking over my shoulder all the time.

I have so much drama going on now that I can barely think straight. I'm only putting it here just to put it out. Plus it's less crazy than screaming it into the woods. I know no one reads my horseshit. Maybe the nightmares will stop I hope.

Faith Speaks - Weird Stuff

So I've been a girl for nearly a year now, nearly 11 months I think. I've noticed a few things since getting trapped like this. Routine sets in quickly. I've read those stories online. Putting on panties and a bra isn't exciting on any level, I used to wear boxers and I see it as being the same now. Just something to wear under your clothes. I do have some fancier stuff, but that's for special occasions.

Next I really can't remember guy stuff. How it felt to get morning wood or something. It's like a dream that you know you had, but it disappears like smoke. The more I try to remember it, the less I can find that I do remember. I don't even remember sex as a guy anymore. I find it crazy, but what can I do?

I'm not depressed being a girl or anything. I just accept it more than anything else. There are things I like and a few things I don't like. I just live, because I don't like the alternative.

There is another thing. I have dreams that deal with the future. Sometimes I see my future self, although sometimes it is just a dream and nothing more. Recently I saw a future me who was pregnant. I hope she was just a dream. I don't think I can handle that. That's why I use every protection I know of.

Faith Speaks - Big Update

So it happened. My boyfriend asked me to marry him. It was a big date thing, huge setup and everything. I'm pretty sure he's convinced that's how its supposed to happen because that's how it happens in movies. So I said yes. I didn't even give it a second thought until I got home. That's when I panicked. I don't know why really. It may have just been excitement or whatever is left of my male ego dying from the "aww" factor.

The thought of being someone's wife is so weird to me, but I sort of like it. I love him and could spend the rest of my life with him. I'm fine with just living together, but he's really sort of goofy about that. It's almost cute.

We don't have a date or anything, I suggested a trip to Vegas. But then B found out or she knew all along, now she wants me to do this huge thing. I don't know about all of that, I'm not a fan of church. Also that whole dress thing isn't my cup of tea.

Faith Speaks - Sex and Me

So no one replied. I'm pretty sure people read this, at least one person. Come on, don't you have anything to ask me? I used to be a man, turned into a female vampire slayer, and now work for a secret government group that hides alien technology. I'd lose my mind asking questions.

But here is what I've had on my mind lately. Maybe this will make someone respond, because it is about my sex life.

So I'm dating a guy. Yes, I was a completely straight guy before all of this. But since the change, things have been different. I don't know if it was some part of Faith being made part of me or just the body, but I'm into guys now. I can't even think of other girls like that anymore. That's one of the weirder things about all of this. I remember being with girls when I was a guy. When I try to focus on it, I find myself imagining myself as the girl. Which is really weird.

But I'm dating a guy, I met him at work shortly after I changed. I've never really asked him about how he feels about how I used to be a guy. I've gotten where I try to ignore it, so he never brings it up. I don't know if he does that for my sake or if he doesn't want to think about it either. I don't think I really act like a normal girl around him. We mainly hang out and watch either action movies or scifi movies.

We do have sex. I guess if you know anything about the tv version of Faith, then you might have a decent idea of what I'm like in that area. I wish it hadn't copied that bit, but I can't really go back. I don't go around with anyone though, just him. I do feel like it sometimes, but I'm able to resist it. That's the odd thing about the change. I can't fight some of it, but the other stuff I can. I can keep myself from acting like a slut, but I can't be into girls. I talked to this guy who is in the science department, he thinks the structure of the brain is changed. The mind is transferred to it, making things that are genetic impossible to resist. A few of the things the tv Faith was into had to do with her upbringing and past, since I didn't live with that, I'm able to resist it. Although it is always there. Sometimes when I'm drunk or angry it comes out more. He and I have had some fun every now and then. Just watch the show and what they could show with Faith, like that but definitely not for tv.

Sometimes I do worry about things though. I don't know if he's attracted to me or my body. I know he is a fan of Eliza. I guess the fact that he puts up with my drama is a good sign. I really don't know about our future together. I really don't believe in marriage, but if he asked I don't think I could say no. I do love him, I feel so better when I'm with him. But those little thoughts about my past pop up every now and then. I really don't know about kids. That's just something I try not to think about. I know it will come up eventually. I just don't think I'm ready for that or that I'd be good at that. I can barely keep my own shit together, I don't know how I'd be able to raise a kid.

But, once again, ask me anything.