Progress is slow & other excuses

I am still working, Book Two is still coming soon, followed shortly by Book Three.

I finished the first story of Season Two and plotted out the rest of the season. From the looks of it, there will be ten stories, not counting the one that takes place after the season.

Schedule

In a week or so, I'll upload all the current stories in a collected form. I have rewritten a few parts of it, fixing a few errors and other problems. I have also added a few scenes and attempted to better explain some details (one of which is why they continue to use the names Buffy and Faith). Some scenes have been removed or changed to help the flow of the story. It will be posted in three parts, mainly because I feel the cliffhangers work better that way. Since I consider all the current stories to be a season, this is basically the season boxset with a few edits. I'm also adding some notes to the story. If you don't want to bother reading through it again, it is basically the same thing as the originals, but it is a good reminder before the next season.

After that I will post a short story here, an exclusive story that takes place between seasons. It is too short to be part of the regular story, but I feel it needs to be told.

I'm debating holding back season two for a while to post another story. It takes place after season two, but sets it up and ties into the epilogue of season one. It will end in a cliffhanger and will be wrapped up after season two. So if I do post it after season two, it will be a two part finale.

After that, I'm pretty much done with the series. There are a few more stories to be told, some of which are hinted at in the finale story. But I'll probably not do another season of them and instead focus on individual stories.

I also have some ideas for some non-MAU stories and would like to do them in the near future. I just need to get Buffy and Faith's story out of my system.

Coming Soon...

The next chapter of the MAU - Slayers series should be ready by next month.

Faith Speaks - Nightmares

I've been having nightmares lately, mainly two different ones. One deals with my parents. They're dead now, they didn't even know I was like this. I sometimes wonder what would have happened if they found out. They probably wouldn't believe it, hell I barely believe it. I do wonder if they would be proud of me or at least accept me. That's part of what the nightmare goes into. I can't remember all of it, just them yelling at me for being so stupid. I actually woke up crying. I know that it is just a dream, but it felt so real. I haven't even told my best friend about it. I feel stupid to even let it bother me.

The other one needs some set up. I was kidnapped by this creep. Normally I'd kick his ass and leave, but he was able to control people. He made me his slave, I was able to break free and get away. Sometime later I find out he's not locked up and he comes after me. Thankfully B was with me and she killed him. But in these dreams, he's back. But like a zombie or something, all rotting. He comes in and holds me down, I can't fight him off and I feel so weak. Before he does anything else, I wake up. Usually in a pool of my own sweat. Fuck I wish I could erase that part of my memory. If he wasn't dead I'd be looking over my shoulder all the time.

I have so much drama going on now that I can barely think straight. I'm only putting it here just to put it out. Plus it's less crazy than screaming it into the woods. I know no one reads my horseshit. Maybe the nightmares will stop I hope.

Faith Speaks - Weird Stuff

So I've been a girl for nearly a year now, nearly 11 months I think. I've noticed a few things since getting trapped like this. Routine sets in quickly. I've read those stories online. Putting on panties and a bra isn't exciting on any level, I used to wear boxers and I see it as being the same now. Just something to wear under your clothes. I do have some fancier stuff, but that's for special occasions.

Next I really can't remember guy stuff. How it felt to get morning wood or something. It's like a dream that you know you had, but it disappears like smoke. The more I try to remember it, the less I can find that I do remember. I don't even remember sex as a guy anymore. I find it crazy, but what can I do?

I'm not depressed being a girl or anything. I just accept it more than anything else. There are things I like and a few things I don't like. I just live, because I don't like the alternative.

There is another thing. I have dreams that deal with the future. Sometimes I see my future self, although sometimes it is just a dream and nothing more. Recently I saw a future me who was pregnant. I hope she was just a dream. I don't think I can handle that. That's why I use every protection I know of.

Faith Speaks - Big Update

So it happened. My boyfriend asked me to marry him. It was a big date thing, huge setup and everything. I'm pretty sure he's convinced that's how its supposed to happen because that's how it happens in movies. So I said yes. I didn't even give it a second thought until I got home. That's when I panicked. I don't know why really. It may have just been excitement or whatever is left of my male ego dying from the "aww" factor.

The thought of being someone's wife is so weird to me, but I sort of like it. I love him and could spend the rest of my life with him. I'm fine with just living together, but he's really sort of goofy about that. It's almost cute.

We don't have a date or anything, I suggested a trip to Vegas. But then B found out or she knew all along, now she wants me to do this huge thing. I don't know about all of that, I'm not a fan of church. Also that whole dress thing isn't my cup of tea.

Faith Speaks - Sex and Me

So no one replied. I'm pretty sure people read this, at least one person. Come on, don't you have anything to ask me? I used to be a man, turned into a female vampire slayer, and now work for a secret government group that hides alien technology. I'd lose my mind asking questions.

But here is what I've had on my mind lately. Maybe this will make someone respond, because it is about my sex life.

So I'm dating a guy. Yes, I was a completely straight guy before all of this. But since the change, things have been different. I don't know if it was some part of Faith being made part of me or just the body, but I'm into guys now. I can't even think of other girls like that anymore. That's one of the weirder things about all of this. I remember being with girls when I was a guy. When I try to focus on it, I find myself imagining myself as the girl. Which is really weird.

But I'm dating a guy, I met him at work shortly after I changed. I've never really asked him about how he feels about how I used to be a guy. I've gotten where I try to ignore it, so he never brings it up. I don't know if he does that for my sake or if he doesn't want to think about it either. I don't think I really act like a normal girl around him. We mainly hang out and watch either action movies or scifi movies.

We do have sex. I guess if you know anything about the tv version of Faith, then you might have a decent idea of what I'm like in that area. I wish it hadn't copied that bit, but I can't really go back. I don't go around with anyone though, just him. I do feel like it sometimes, but I'm able to resist it. That's the odd thing about the change. I can't fight some of it, but the other stuff I can. I can keep myself from acting like a slut, but I can't be into girls. I talked to this guy who is in the science department, he thinks the structure of the brain is changed. The mind is transferred to it, making things that are genetic impossible to resist. A few of the things the tv Faith was into had to do with her upbringing and past, since I didn't live with that, I'm able to resist it. Although it is always there. Sometimes when I'm drunk or angry it comes out more. He and I have had some fun every now and then. Just watch the show and what they could show with Faith, like that but definitely not for tv.

Sometimes I do worry about things though. I don't know if he's attracted to me or my body. I know he is a fan of Eliza. I guess the fact that he puts up with my drama is a good sign. I really don't know about our future together. I really don't believe in marriage, but if he asked I don't think I could say no. I do love him, I feel so better when I'm with him. But those little thoughts about my past pop up every now and then. I really don't know about kids. That's just something I try not to think about. I know it will come up eventually. I just don't think I'm ready for that or that I'd be good at that. I can barely keep my own shit together, I don't know how I'd be able to raise a kid.

But, once again, ask me anything.

Faith Speaks - Intro

The following was emailed to me. I do not know if it is true or not.

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So, I really don't know how to start this. Not that anyone would believe it in the first place. Well, here goes nothing. My name is Faith and I hunt vampires for the government, among other scary shit. I'm only doing this because my therapist thought I need a decent way to vent and suggested a diary. But since this is the 21^st Century I decided to blog. I'm not worried about the government censoring it, they really don't care, besides no one would possibly believe it.

So, about my life. I look exactly like Eliza Dushku circa season 3 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer and I have all the Slayer powers. Pretty cool huh? But here's the weird bit, I used to be a guy and I'm stuck this way. All things considered, it could be worse. I'm still human, I had friends who weren't so lucky. Still, it isn't bad being a girl. It really isn't that much different, except for a few minor things. By minor things I mean the major difference. But I got used to it after a few months, I don't really have a choice for a few decades.

It's weird really, I've barely been like this for a year now (about 9 months or so) and I'm already forgetting my old life. It just seems so alien to what I am now. Having a living reminder of my old life doesn't help, but I might explain that later. This is all about me, like every other blog written by a girl.

I'll write more in the future, this was just the intro. So if you read this and have a question, post it. I'll answer it, I'm bored at work because nothing is happening right now. Granted I can't tell you everything, national security and all that. But we'll go on a case by case basis.

If you reply.

The Future of the MAU - Slayers series

The story of Faith and Buffy is far from over, but it might be a while before it continues. Currently I'm working on combining all the current stories, besides the April 1st special, into one big file. I will fix a few mistakes I made, tidy up a few things, and add at least one scene. Consider it to be the full season release of the series. I mainly just want to fix a few things, but a part of it is for the people who don't like to read the serial stories. Now my stories were always meant to be read in the way I released them. The stories are largely self contained, while tying into a larger story.

If all goes right, the season season will start in the fall. It will still take place in the present and show the Slayers one year into their new lives. I have an idea for the story arc, but it needs some work. I hope to have more cameos from some of the popular characters from the other MAU stories, as long as I can get permission from their creators and with their input.

I also have another story in the works, something that sets the stage for season two and answers a few questions. But it might be a while, possibly during the summer. It will be longer than the other stories and barely feature the main cast, instead introducing new ones. Although the main character has already been introduced in a way.

Story 18

MAU - Slayers - The Man Comes Around

I've had this story sitting around in my head since I first starting writing the series. The ending, which is something I've debated including, as written right after the fifth story. It felt right to have it end that, but maybe a little weird to have such a large time jump. I will say that when I start the second season, it will be roughly three months after the main story. The 2017 story will be slowly dealt with and explained. But the seeds have been planted throughout the series.

Story 17

MAU - Slayers - What Is And What Can Never Be

I will this is something of a cheat. But I wanted to set up the final story a little bit and deal with where Faith is mentally. She is still dealing with her transformation, but she is adjusting slowly.

The whole dream world is based on what she wants on some level. Deep down she does enjoy being female, but she is confused as to why. So her fantasy world has it so that she was always female.

Also R's real name is Richard, I've been trying to fit it in since story 4 or 5.

This is probably the last time we'll see Head Jordan, due to a physical version of him existing now and Faith starting to let go of her past.

The scene where she remembers is inspired by Lost.

As for the last dream bit, I'm not going to say if it is a dream or real.

The next story is the finale and I'll hopefully have it up next week.

Story 16

MAU - Slayers - Getting To Know Yourself

This was a weird one to write. First of all, I'm inserting a new character into the story, although one the audience knows on some level. Also I'm trying to do a sort of "clip show" before the finale.

One of the main goals with this story was to show just how much Faith has changed. While the MAU isn't supposed to cause mental changes, there is no way that it can't on some level. It changes the structure of the brain at the very least. This is meant to highlight that.

Also this is the calm before the storm, big things are coming soon.

Story 15

MAU - Slayers - Are You Sure This Is Canon

Besides the ending, there are a lot of big things that happen here. One of them is Faith's continuing acceptance of her current form, this is probably her biggest step so far. They way that I've written her is not that she hates her body. Based on the rules of the MAU universe, the machine actually makes the user accept the changes. Faith does accept it, but she is very concerned about why she is accepting it. This journey is going to continue for a while, this is the longer arc of the series and the end result of it has been hinted at.

Also fans of Elrod W.'s MAU - Trekkies series may recognize Danni's cameo. Elrod gave me permission to use her in a cameo scene. Which sort of lead me to creating a few new Trekkies. Then there is the ending, which shall be expanded on as the series continues.

The title is a joke, referencing both the discussion on the recent Star Trek movie and the whole issue of the ending.

Elrod's Notes

Please do not read until after you read the latest story, which should be added today. Warning: If you do go ahead and read it, the ending will be completely spoiled.

Story 14

MAU - Slayers - Keeping Everything Shiny

Well, it took me long enough.  This one was a little difficult to write.  I just got into a funk and couldn't get anything done.

Storywise, this is the start of several storylines that going to start paying off very soon.  One of which is very big.  Another will only start paying off towards the end, while another will be going past that.  I've started going into the mind of Faith a little more.  Continuing to show that she is far from fine.

The Twilight thing is something I've been wanting to do for a while now, but kept putting it off.  It originally happened at a mall, but that seemed like a bad place for a fight.  Especially when my two characters are avoiding being noticed.

Follow Faith and other news

Faith is on Twitter now, you can follow her.

@Faith_Fan

Also the next story, which took a lot longer than I expected will be online this week. The others should follow shortly afterwards.

But just as a teaser here are the current titles for the rest of the arc, all are subject to change.

Keeping Everything Shiny

I'm Pretty Sure This Violates Canon

Getting To Know Yourself

Be Seeing You

TBA - Season Finale

TBA - Super Secret Story

MAU - Slayers - Runaways

Well this is where it starts, the final push towards the big finale. This story was actually written immediately after I posted the previous story (not the April Fool's one, the one before). I really can't go into much detail because a lot is building on stuff to come. But if anyone is interested in the timeline of the series, this is roughly six months after the first story, keeping the story current with the present. I haven't fully figured it out completely, but it is meant to take place around the same time as the story is posted.

I do want to remark on Faith's comment about finding one of the actors on Supernatural to be attractive. While she may not like to admit it, she does have a type. R and this actor fall within it, so there is something there. She is still highly troubled by the small mental changes she has been through. Not that she is trying to resist it, she really can't. But she can be bothered by this. This comes from how I chose to write the change done by the MAU. It does change the very structure of the brain. The mind itself (personality, memories) are largely unchanged, but when put on top of the new brain, things are a little different. Faith is dealing with all the emotions, instincts, and hormonal issues that the real Faith would have. This doesn't really go against the other stories, in fact most seem to support it in some way. It has just never been focused on in the story. I just went with it because I find the relationship between mind and body to be fascinating.

The main point is still the characters, but if I can fit in something like that I can make myself a little happier.

Story Update

MAU - Slayers - No Reality, Only Illusion

A little bit of April Fool's Day fun. This is one of the reasons I've delayed the last arc for so long. As for where this falls in the canon, certain aspects of it are canon as will be learned later on. Although me talking to Faith and Buffy isn't.

Last Update Before New Stories

A while back I said that each arc was roughly one season. I'm taking that back now. Each arc is part of a season. So season one of MAU - Slayers consists of arcs 1, 2, and the upcoming 3. With that said, there will be a season two some time in the near future. So get ready for the last part of MAU - Slayers: Season One.

Other news: I will be re-editing the early stories some and combining all of them into one large story file. There will be some changes, all minor, and possibly some sort of alternate ending, although I'm not sure of that yet.

Slayers Return This Week

Most likely on Thursday.

Agency - Known User Database

F098-SG-01 - "Buffy" - Anne Winters

DOB - 03/01/1985

DOT - 10/07/2009

Known Abilities - Enhanced fighting skills, enhanced strength, enhanced healing abilities, low level physic abilities. All similar to that of the fictional character Buffy Summers seen on "Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

History - Previously known as Laura [name removed] (female, age 24). Her friend found an active MAU and used it to become a copy of the fictional Buffy Summers, her friend became the fictional character Faith from the same series. Two friends of the pair, used the MAU to become the vampires known as Angel and Spike. Assisted in tracking down the two vampires and was later hired by the Agency, proving to be an excellent Agent. Later disappeared after incident at detention center.

Current Location - Unknown

Psychological Profile - Displays similar qualities to the fictional "Buffy". Possibly a side effect of the MAU combined with subject's original personality. Extremely devoted to her friend, now known as Faith. Excellent Agent, despite some signs of willingness to go off mission.

F099-ED-03 - "Faith" - Hope Lehane

DOB - 10/13/1984

DOT - 10/07/2009

Known Abilities - Enhanced fighting skills, enhanced strength, enhanced healing abilities, low level physic abilities. All similar to that of the fictional character Faith seen on "Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

History - Previously known as Jordan [name removed] (male, age 24). Found an active MAU and used it to become a copy of the fictional vampire slayer Faith from "Buffy the Vampire Slayer", his friend became Buffy from the same series. Two friends of the pair, used the MAU to become the vampires known as Angel and Spike. Assisted in tracking down the two vampires and was later hired by the Agency, proving to be an excellent Agent. Was kidnapped by a MAU user and kept in a brainwashed state for three weeks. After escaping and recovering, Faith went back on active duty. Appears to be in a romantic relationship with Agent R, who frequently works with her. Later disappeared after incident at detention center.

Current Location - Unknown

Psychological Profile - Displays severe aggression in apprehension of combatants and seems to take satisfaction is killing some. Although she has expressed displeasure in this, fearing that she is becoming more like the fictional Faith, who displays the same actions. Her time held captive has only increased her feelings of confusion. It is unknown if she will be a repeat of the incident with F087-ED-01, who was also known as [CLASSIFIED, ALPHA LEVEL CLEARANCE REQUIRED]. Observation is recommended. Despite these issues, has proven to be an excellent Agent. Has become more emotional dependent on her friend, now known as Buffy. It is believed that it is from a combination of her transformation and the lose of her family.

The Last Prediction

TOP SECRET - Agency Clearance Level Alpha Required

The following is a transcript of recordings from M0001-XX-01, known as Bill. M-XX-01 has a high level psychic ability, but due to the nature of his ability is unable to be of any use. The following transcript is the last available recording before his death. The true meaning is unknown, but it is believed that it is connected to F098-SG-01 and F099-ED-03. They are known as the former Agents "Buffy" and "Faith".

Transcript Begins

>His time is ending soon, they must return to the light.

>He is coming back, once thought lost forever. Two souls, so different now, but once the same.

>My time is ending now, he is coming for me.

>He will collect them, the children of the device. Building a grand army, he is playing with fire.

>I cannot see their end. At last, a mystery.

>One is now three, soon to be four. A new beginning.

>I knew you would come back here one day. [Rest of recording has been erased.]

Transcript Ends

Happy Valentine's Day!

Hope you had a nice one.

Still working on the next arc by the way. I got in contact with the great Elrod W regarding a liberty I'll be taking with the MAU itself. All of the emails will be posted around the time of the story as a sort of extra like on DVDs.

Fictionmania is down

I don't know why or when it will be back up. Although I can guess what caused it, but I won't get into that.

So I'm going to go over the older stories, correct a few errors and then post them here. I'll try and get it done over the weekend.

Also I've done a good bit of progress on the next story. If Fictionmania isn't online by the time I'm ready, I'll just publish it here first.

Dropped Ideas

Over the course of writing the series, I've come up with some elements that I didn't use or just dropped. I guess it is part of the natural evolution of a story. But anyway, here is some ideas I didn't use.

Arc 1

• The Beatles song "Here Comes The Sun" originally played a large part in the story. Faith would have heard the song during her dream. Then later it would have been the thing that lead her to seeing that Spike had a MAU. I dropped it after realizing it was too close to elements of Allen W's Slayer series.
• There was originally a sex scene between Faith and Agent R, where R's real name would have been revealed. I dropped it mainly because I didn't want it to look like R was taking advantage of her. R's real name will be revealed soon.
• I had originally planned to show off some of Agent S' past, possibly explaining his latching onto Buffy and Faith. This may show up again later though.
• Originally Angel would have already used the MAU and become immune to the sun. He would have still died though. I dropped it because I imagined that people would mention that he should have used it the device to become immortal.
• Spike was originally going to escape. I killed him because I thought that Dennis would be a more compelling villain.

Arc 2

• Some of the stuff with Faith and Dennis was a bit more detailed. I censored myself because I found it to be too dark.
• Faith originally killed Dennis. I saved him because I felt it would take Faith down a dark path and because he was too good of a villain to go out so quickly.
• There was a story set at a mall, but the tone was wrong given the rest of the arc. It would have been like a musical number in Empire Strikes Back.
• I considered letting Dennis survive again, but killing him was needed to keep Faith from sinking into depression again. Although I still have something up my sleeve regarding Dennis.
• There was originally an epilogue set sometime in the future that set up some of Faith's future. I may use this actually because I like it.

Also I should note that I'll do some slight editing on the old stories and post them here. I'm a little worried about Fictionmania right now. I'm staying out of the whole thing, but if the place gets overrun by stories like the one that caused all of that, I really don't want to stick around. Fictionmania will still be the home of the stories, but I want a back up, just in case.

Writing in the MAU universe

So I've been writing in the MAU universe for a while now, so this is a little bit of what it is like. The MAU universe was created by Elrod W a few years ago. Sadly it isn't as popular as it used to be, but I hoping there is a resurgence in the future.

The best thing about it is the freedom of it. There are a few rules, but the MAU allows amazing freedom in what you can do with your characters.

Now since it is something of a shared universe, there is a little bit of crossover between stories. Largely coming from the Agents C & D, who pop into several stories. They even show up in one of mine, the 100th MAU story on Fictionmania. Although I only included them as a cameo for that reason. The characters from the MAU - Trekkies stories have gotten a slight mention. I believe that Elrod W wants them off limits to other writers, so I only vaguely referenced them. I would think that the Agency is still very interested in them and their working MAU, but have given up on trying. The largest crossover for me has been with Allen W's The Slayer series. It is pretty much the inspiration for my series, so I only felt it was right to include his Faith on some level.

Plus since this is in the same universe, the original Faith is going to have some ramifications on my Faith. Both have worked for the Agency, so some older Agents are aware of what happened. Although I like to think that it was covered up and the newer Agents do not know about it. Agent R being one of them, he has no knowledge at all about the other Faith. He hasn't even been told by his girlfriend, who is my Faith. For Faith, she has some trouble dealing with it. Imagine learning that there is someone who looked just like you, pretty much acted like you, and worked at the same place. Now imagine that something very bad happened to this person, it would probably be a little weird to say the least.

The original Faith has driven a little bit of the plot, way more than I originally wanted. But I looked at it from a logical point, she would have had a major impact on how the Agency operates. So the "man in the suit" main plan was to wipe out both slayers because he knew how strong the original was. Plus the chip mentioned in the last story is an updated version implanted into the original Faith. I try to avoid it, but sometimes it just comes up.

Now will there ever be a meeting of the Faiths?

Maybe.

As for the future, the next arc is going to be a little different. Buffy and Faith are now on the run. Along the way they encounter other MAU users and begin learning what the "man in the suit" has planned. I have something planned with an experiment on a MAU. Something that it isn't supposed to do, but is meant to be an one in a million type event. There may be some different alien technology showing up. Not Fwirthian technology, but something else and much rarer. There may be a large time jump sometime in the future. So far I've only jumped a few weeks and series is more or less set in present day. The next arc will probably wrap up the "man in the suit" storyline. The seeds for the next villain have already been planted. In case anyone is wondering, the dream sequences are very important. Especially the ones in "I Close My Eyes and Then Drift Away" and "Into The Great Unknown".

Hello?

If anyone actually reads this, please post a comment.

Latest Story

MAU - Slayers - Into The Great Unknown

The last story of the current arc. It explains a few things, but brings up even bigger questions. I'm hoping people enjoy this one, it was probably the quickest to write. Most of it just came to me and as I've gotten to understand the characters they almost write themselves. Since this was the last story of the arc I wanted to do a few things. The biggest was Faith confronting Dennis after all this time. She will still be dealing with it for a while, but not as bad anymore. As for the reveal at the end, it is connected to someone you met in the first story of the arc. The reveal is something I've been debating over for a while. I first came up with the idea very early into the first arc, I have an alternate scene written which I consider canon and may show up.

I will go ahead and say that the next arc will be a little different. Buffy and Faith are on the run now, but they will still encounter other MAU users.

New Story

MAU - Slayers - Walking Blindly...

I hope that some of you remember the last two vampires caught by Buffy and Faith a few stories ago. Well this is why they weren't killed. There is some info coming up in the next story, but it is only addressing why this happened.

I was happy to work with Agent S again. He is one of my favorite characters in the series. He's just an old Agent who has seen too much during his job.

The next story is the last part of the current arc. It is one story short of the original plan, but I'm pushing that story back to the next arc.